atm said on October 5, 2017
do i look like a walking atm? do i look stupid because im willing to open my wallet and help you. you're not a good liar- i just trusted you more than i should.
iCaMe2VeNt said on October 6, 2017
It seems like the more you give to someone, the more they take it for granted. I've fucking had it with that Bitch, dedicated half my youth trying to make her happy, even gave up my friends for her and when I needed her help she tells me to go else where. Why do you even consider yourself as my sister when all you do is make my life miserable and cause my depression. Some days I wish I never had to live around you but fuck fate for making us blood related. I hate you in my life and now I'm feeling pissed just thinking about your unappreciative and selfish ways.
Trevor from GTA 5 said on October 6, 2017
Let me just say if you are a part of the crowd who is siding with the likes of Michael Moore after the Vegas shooting, please, leave the United States. Get the fuck out. You are what is wrong with America and everyone like you.
Isiac said on October 9, 2017
About a religious family I hate This isn't a joke I'm serious rape them for a few hours beat them till blood drops from their head chop off their cock or mangle their pussy with a knife than tie them up and slit their throats or just stick a gun in their mouth and pull that trigger feels so amazing doesn't it? Rapeing the mom shooting her husband to death(:
Trevor from GTA 5 said on October 11, 2017
Wow, you are seriously fucked up! Are you muslim?
Ginger Sugar said on October 9, 2017
Just wish someone would listen to me. I don't want anyone to fix my problem, I just want someone to listen. Just let me vent. Why am I always told to "just let it go" or "don't worry about it"? I just needed someone in my family to say, "Yes, you're right. They should not have done that to you. You are right for being angry about how they have done nothing but treat you like crap and make everything difficult since you have taken on this leadership role. I'm sorry you're having a rough time, now go ahead and let it out."
Elliciting said on October 10, 2017
I'm 14 and i don't know what to do with my life in the future
like everyone knows what they're going to be when they're older and I'm just here still thinking
it's almost the end of the year, I'm going to be in grade 10 soon and we're choosing our subjects to study tomorrow and I just don't know I mean every once in a while I would question my ambition choices
I want to go into psychology but at the same time I want to lengthen my knowledge in art and animation
idk I'm just confused
I feel like so much stress and pressure is put onto teens when they probably shouldn't be thinking about what they'll be years later in the future
I don't even know anymore
I feel like I'm bothering people when I talk to them about it so I'm just going to type here
I'm always listening to people vent and rant so why can't I find someone that I myself can rant to someone who agrees and understands and just doesn't judge so much
Holly said on October 23, 2017
Hey I get this 100% it’s really fucking scary having to make decisions all of a sudden. I’ve just started university but all throughout school I’ve never felt ready I make decisions with my life but fact is nobody is. Those people who look like they’ve got everything sorted out don’t everyone is just as nervous and scared about the future and it’s ok to be. Honestly sometimes you just want someone to point you in the right direction and say look that is where you are going to end up and this is what you need to do to get there. Unfortunately it doesn’t work like that you have to grit your teeth and take massive steps that you might not want to take that you might not even be sure of but just know that even though everything is moving so so fast you’re going to get through it because everyone in your class in your grade all of the other 14 year olds in the world are in the exact same position and I promise you, you are not the only one that feels like this. Try signing up to some art related activities that’s what I did with drama and I loved it I know that a lot of what I say may not be comforting and might not even be the help you’re looking for but trust me in the sense that you’re not the only one who feels like this, I’m in university and people still don’t know what to do or if they’ve made the right choice, just know that you’ll get through all of this.
Ethab said on October 26, 2017
Don't worry about it. I'm a sophomore and I I have 0 ideas about what I'm going to do. Nobody does ATM except for a few people. Just wait until you find what's right for you
Mimi said on October 27, 2017
Relax! You are so young! Do not ever feel like you are bothering someone when you feel the need to talk, and I commend you for thinking about your life instead of just wasting it away by not caring.
You may change your mind a million times about what you want to do as you grow older have new experiences and are introduced to new things or even uncover some hidden talents and potential.
That being said – the only way to realize your potential is to stay away from drugs and any other toxicity including friends. Keeping focused on your interests and maintaining a healthy lifestyle during adolescence will help you create lifelong healthy habits and enable you to live your best life.
Money spent on partying now: could be an awesome trip around the world later if you catch my drift.
Also, say no to sex. It is the number one regret all of my friends have is that they didn't wait long enough or for the right person.
ParentOfTwo said on November 25, 2017
WOW, only 14. you have your who life in front of you. Pick your subjects, respect your parents and other adults. People make decisions and change their minds all of the time. I hope you have parents at home. Lean on and toward them and keep them close. Be careful on these blogs. Not everyone has your best interest at heart. Call the police if anything seem suspicious.
Jersey dude said on October 12, 2017
The internet is for porn. So grab hold of your dick and double click for porn! PORN! PORN!!!!!
Dadevious1 said on October 14, 2017
jen said on October 15, 2017
my parents both just UGH!!!!! mainly my mom who always says i have an attitude when i dont or gets randomly pissed off at me for no reason and then repeats i have an attitude which just gets me stand offish and pissy. she doesn't give a fucking shit about how i feel and it just makes me want to scream
i dont know what to do anymore! i am in college rn so i cant just up and move ( as much as i wish i could
IamSoLikeGeezWhy said on November 25, 2017
Does she just care about you and making sure you are moving forward in the right direct? Do take her direction as misdirection because she has made a mistake or two in the past? Does she just want for you to do better? Can you name 4 things that she does right? I am sure you have a list of things she does wrong. Can tell her that she is pissing you off? If you are just being you and not trying to empress anyone, why not just be you and tell your mom who you are and how you feel about life. Being young and in college is a lot of pressure for folks who believe they know about life, but has not lived beyond 35 years. Once you hit the 40s, you begin to realize that what you thought was majorly important was just another thing that you could have done without. One day, you will be that parent, look back at you and laugh.
Enjoy life, your folks and keep if all in perspective. Best Wishes with your school work and studies.
nobody said on October 15, 2017
I am so sick and tired of being in pain every fucking day of my life…besides the EVERYDAY pain in my neck and shoulders which falls to the background because of the other pains that literally screams over and over all day long. I have recurring vaginitis for the last year and a half..to the point that it hurts just to gingerly wipe after using the restroom. I am so sick of hurting DOWN THERE..its so embarrassing! In addition to that, I have diabetic neuropathy in my legs and probably a pinched nerve that is affecting my feet especially my right foot..so it hurts to walk. I work midnights which I hate since I am a morning person naturally so even after enough hours of sleep…I am still tired….I'm beginning to feel as if that will be a constant and consistent description instead of an occasional adjective. and the fact that I feel the need to keep where and when I work under wraps because of ex is exhausting in and of itself. Plus working almost 70 hours a week leaves me feeling like I don't have any time for anything else. I ask my sons for help..one is 15 and one is 20-he had been living out of state for the last year and I enjoy having him back in my life …that being said I have asked him to do 2 things that would have taken him 15 minutes for each chore- both of which he didn't do…but he has occasionally done things without asking and the few requests that only took a minute or 2…so I am struggling on how to treat him like an adult when I am getting mixed signals. My 15-year-old is going through a lazy phase and doesn't want to do anything and I receive attitude for the mere mention of chores. I am a single parent so there isn't anyone else to ask and even when I wasn't single..I still had to do pretty much everything else and more. So, I am physically, emotionally and mentally drained, in pain, and alone. Sometimes I wonder if I and the world would be better off without me. I am tired of being in pain and I can't afford to go to the doctors. There isn't any sign that the pain will end and most likely will only become worse. Probably a high chance that I will lose my foot….I will end it before I reach that point. But I am probably putting the cart in front of the horse,
Mike said on October 20, 2017
Wow I’m sssooooooo sorry for what you’re going through. Hang in there!!!!! Things will get better!!!!!!!!! If you’re going through hell…. keep going!!!!!!!!!!
Verypeedoff said on December 5, 2017
As a spoonie, this is something i can totally relate to. There are some fantastic support groups out there, esp believe it or not, on fb. Most are private so you dont have to worry about friends reading anything that might be TMI. But trust me, nothing is TMI on support groups. You will feel lots better once you find people to confide in.
jUSTANANGRYPERSON said on October 19, 2017
IM SO MAD IN CLASS TODAY! I WANTED TO KILL SOMBODY IN MY CLASS BECAUSE THEY TELL ME TO WORK AND STOP BEING LAZY, BUT THE SECOND I START TO WORK, MY PARTNER GOES: "LET ME DO IT CORRECTLY." THEN SHE DOES THE WORK AND THEN HER BOYFRIEND, AFTER CLASS GOES: "This is what getting work done looks like." THIS MADE ME WANT TO KNOCK THIS KIDS LIGHTS OUT!
Hog said on October 26, 2017
Do it. Knock his faggot ass out.
Next time just lean back put your hands behind your head and put your feet up and say " this is what getting work done looks like – work smarter not harder"
It's funny because it's true – they are doing the all of the work and you're getting credit and the same grade.
If this comes up with the teacher explain the situation and that you feel she and her boyfriend were very condescending when you attempted the project and even had the nerve to bully you afterward by saying/implying that you are lazy and out stupid
umpireman said on November 6, 2017
what did you do next___
Sometimes I think a flip back to the 1940s and 50s when women stayed home and out of the workforce wouldn’t be too bad. Tired of working with mouthy bitches who need smacked.
Yeah and we miss the days of cavemen where all men had six packs and they didn't try mask their animal grunts with words
Hog said on October 29, 2017
And you’re the type of bitch I’m talking about.
anon said on October 26, 2017
So sick to death of the way I get treated by my family. I am no longer a child and don't deserve to be treated like one. My mother in particular feels the need to constantly speak down to me, and kind of treat me like a nuisance when I talk.. "Oh ummm… I don't know" she says as she screws her face up and ushers me away. She keeps insisting that I don't move away from her though. Being so possessive, and guilt tripping me over the fact that my partner and I are moving cities in the next few months. I don't belong to her. If she was going to treat me like I was her property I would've rather not be born at all. How can she be so possessive yet so dismissive at the same time? Am I just for show? Something for her to look at until she gets bored? I'm such a novelty to her.
The worst part is when she says: Something is up with you, oh just you wait, I'll get to the bottom of it!!
FUCK. RIGHT. OFF.
Literally just carrying on with my day and she says that- NOW something is wrong. Of course Im going to react irritatedly.
Anonymous said on October 26, 2017
My mother went to a dumb psychic and asked him questions about my love life. Worst part is- the 'psychic' said my long-term partner and I won't be together forever. I know I shouldn't believe them, but it's gotten to me bad. I keep overthinking every single detail about our relationship now, even finding flaws in it that I didn't find before. A few days prior, we were literally talking about marriage and I truly felt like:' wow, I already feel like his wife', but ever since the encounter my mum had, I've just been feeling so super worried.
Is it my instinct or my anxiety that is telling me he is right?
Ethan said on October 26, 2017
This is just your anxiety messing with your head. That "psychic" was just trying to get some more rent money. Don't worry about anything 🙂
Anon said on October 29, 2017
Today, I found myself on the verge of/ in tears 7 times in the course of eight hours. I could feel the creeping feeling of a panic attack coming up behind me multiple times, yet always managed to suppress it, purely to not embarrass myself and show others I was in distress. However, this resulted in me tearing up, of which my friends noticed, only serving to make me more nervous. I’m glad they didn’t press too much, and actually served in making me feel a little better– one of them actually bought me a milk at lunch, which made me happier than it probably should. But not an hour later, I had the thought I didn’t deserve them– They were too good for me and I was just a burden. In the back of my mind, I knew they did care for my wellbeing, but anxiety tends to push all reason from your head and focus on the bad things. Of course, this was all happening at school meaning there was really no place for me to vent, which caused me to be fidgety and overall distracting. However, what did NOT help in the slightest was the fact my teacher came up to me and proceeded to reprimand me for something I had stated in a previous class that she had evidently caught wind of. Don’t get me wrong, she approached me in probably the best way she could. She was discreet and calm, yet all I heard in my anxiety-driven mind was “you are a failure, you stupid child. You thought you were conceited enough to say that and make others around you feel even more worthless than you are.” But in reality, she probably said something along the lines of “I understand where you are coming from, however, this is a requirement and is something we need to show you how to do. It is usually very helpful for other students to learn this way, and how you presented yourself made it seem as though you were above it.” I just kind of sat there, falsely smiling and nodding, the only indication of my stress was the rapid clicking of the mechanical pencil I had been drawing with. After the “conversation” I found tears building up, looking downward at the paper I was drawing on in hopes no one would see me. My final class, I managed to recover and overall had a better time, all be it acting perhaps a little but aloof. I just wanted to go home and leave. My math teacher (bless him) actually noticed something was off and commented: “You’ve been a little quiet today, is everything alright?” I responded honestly. “It hasn’t been a good day. Scratch that– Week.” He smiled at me sympathetically and told me he hoped I had a better day, wishing me a good weekend. I smiled in response and walked away.
Now it’s the bus. I was a mess, sitting alone (thank gods). I broke down into tears, allowing my thoughts to go through my head which ranged from hate to self-loathing. I stayed like that for about 40 minutes before telling myself to pull it together. I managed to. For about 10 minutes before breaking down again. That one was shorter, and I felt slightly better afterward. When I got home, I proceeded to head straight to my room and lay on my bed. Not sleeping, just thinking. I wanted someone to talk to, yet had no one readily available, causing me to write this. It’s a terrible feeling when you don’t have someone to rant to.
If you read all that, thank you for sticking through.
Proud bigot said on October 31, 2017
Faggots and lesbians shouldn't be allowed to adopt and raise children. Its wrong and unnatural on every level. They're mentally unfit. The way they live is not natural and its disgusting that people are being pushed to accept this as the norm when we all know its wrong.
There I said it.
Anonymous said on November 23, 2017
100% behind you on this one.
Triggered said on November 2, 2017
Literally just had the dumbest argument ever. Person asks me to not contradict them because it makes them look bad. Ok, whatever. Person proceeds to contradict me right after this. Call them out. "NO I CONTRADICTED AN OPINION YOU CONTRADICTED A FACT" Both of them were opinions, and i cannot actually believe youre sitting here trying to justify this bullshit instead of just saying "my bad" and moving on. Literally thinks they are the smartest person in the world and then says "im humble" to be humble you actually have to do the fucking part where you can admit where youre wrong but oop if youre wrong you just ignore people until you "win" which means the other person just stops talking. real fucking mature
Chainsaw said on November 3, 2017
People just fuckin suck don’t they?
D Dog said on November 6, 2017
I'm just so lonely and miserable and it's mostly because my boyfriend feels like shit and keeps isolating himself. Some times nobody can reach him for days.
Normally i'd be hanging out with his friends, waiting for him to come back but i can't even do that, i can't eat or sleep because i know he's hurting and he's cutting everyone out. And it hurts me because i feel like i'm losing him and he only want to distance himself from everyone so he can kill himself.
Except what he doesn't know is i don't care if something happens to me. I don't care if i die, i don't really have anything to hold onto in my life. Whenever something happens, when i almost get hit by a truck, when i get mugged, when i almost fall off something high, i'm not scared for myself. I'm only scared to leave him behind, he's all i care about, The only thing that keeps me alive is not wanting to hurt him.
I'm happy with him. I won't have anything keeping me here if he's gone. I just won't care anymore.
Bob The Anonymous said on November 8, 2017
Im tired. I'm bored. Everything is stupeeeeeed.I'm not in the mood to study and do homework, right now. ;( 🙁 (T V T) .gahhhhh. You are all so mundane. We live mundane lives in a paper world with paper thin emotions.
Hawk said on November 9, 2017
Nice one Virginia. You all have gone full retard on yet another election. I hope you love it you just voted away your Second Amendment rights for sure.
Naomi said on November 12, 2017
I freel nauseous and depressed. Someone please come with a magic machine and fix my shit hole of a life. Too stressed for this shit.
stressed af said on November 13, 2017
I doubt anyone will read this, it'll probably be too long. I'll go ahead and offend some morals and start with saying I have a daughter out of wedlock. I'll wait for the palpitations to stop…ok. So we have a daughter, live together, and are engaged to be married someday. I love this man so much but sometimes I worry that love just isn't enough. He hasn't been able to keep a steady job for over almost a year, he doesn't understand how to be in a real relationship (his words), he can't seem to just put his dreams of making android video games and just step up. I don't know if i'm just being too harsh and expecting too much. I know it isn't fair to ask him to get a shitty job instead of trying to pursue his dreams but at the same time we have a daughter to care for. I went to college and put my dreams on the back burner, why can't he do the same? I love him but I don't know what to do sometimes. He runs off to his buddie's house out of town all the time because I "stress him out" by trying to talk about money and jobs and food and what we're going to do. I'm home with our 1 1/2 yo daughter, again, and I can't help daydreaming about how much easier my life would be if I was a single mother. I feel guilty for even thinking that but there's a part of me that wonders if this relationship is going to work out, if our family should stay together, or if it would be better for my daughter…I just don't am at the end of my fraying rope and it's so much easier to talk to strangers that don't know you or care than to face my family and friends with these feelings. I'm so sad…I just wish he would either get his shit together or leave me, it would be easier than stringing me along while I hold my breath every time ge gets and quits another job and stress me out while I raise our daughter and try to figure out what to do with money and how we're going to eat while he's out of town playing games…………….
Big'n said on November 14, 2017
You're in good company I have six kids out of wedlock. I fuck a lot and I hate using rubbers. what can I say. I'm there for them all as much as I can be though. I do it better on my own. Child support is a bitch but I make a six figure salary so it aint too bad. Plus I have full custody of 3 of them. I could give two shits whose offended by this. Eat shit.
Anonomouse said on November 14, 2017
need some advice to do with a problem I've been having at work. I've had a string of shit colleges at work but I've been working with this guy for the last year maybe more and hes dragged me down into a severe depression and here's why. Hes 58 and very close to retirement out of shape, ugly, depressive, cowardly, compulsive liar, general scrape arse fucker, I won't get into all that. I can tolerate this knowing that maybe something will change and hes on his way out of the company. I could go on but there's one thing that's been killing me and I cant stand anymore, he absolutely stinks like something you would never imagine a human could produce. I started noticing this about a week after I was assigned as his partner. Its sick but I noticed every time he gets out of the seat in the works van this woft of indescribable shitty,sweaty ,dead fish ,festering arse batter filling the van. I've noticed that it worstens by midweek and he just looks grubbier by the day. Its stinks so bad that it infects the air and has this putrid ,thick fattiness that clings to everything including my clothes, obviously this is causing me huge problems and has been affecting my quality of life massively. I know he eats absolute shit his diet is poor and I know he doesn't wash his clothes his complexion is palid and clammy. It angers me because know its just because he cant bother his ass to make sure hes washing himself or his clothes. He looks like fucking beetlejuice by Wednesday. If we have to stand near each other I find myself looking at him in a hateful way and I have to get as far away from him as possible so people don't think its me. He stank out the old work van but we recently had a new one and hes starting to stink that out. I take my clothes off as soon as I get in from work and they stink of it and I feel disgusting. Ive been so fucked off I keep a can of febreeze next to me and I have to spray his seat every time he get up off it, I've even sprayed him He doesn't seam to smell it or does and doesn't give a fuck. He doesn't get the hint I put air freshers up in the van. Ill be honest it gets to the point where I want to punch him in the face or watch him drop like a sack of shit because I hate the guy for it, coupled with his pathetic personality I'm starting to become enraged to the point that its poisoning me. I was in the army before this career and Ive never encountered anything like this before in my life. I honestly dont know how to approach this, If it was in the army they would not just tell you but throw you in the shower and rub you with domestos and brillo pads. I feel its past the point where I can approach it with him I dont think he can handle it. I've bared this for a long time and longer than I should have hoping he will realise and sort it out. What do I do?
Anonamouse said on November 14, 2017
Seams trivial and funny but coupled with all of the other factors in this difficult life I just don't need this but I'm stuck. I have become hateful and miserable. Working with (enduring) this guy reminds me of how shit things are in general for me. On paper I'm doing ok in reality I'm on the verge of snapping and packing my shit and fucking off somewhere far away.
Kelsey Arlottyiam said on November 14, 2017
I am feeling really low. I have ONE friend. My so called bff got mad at me because on the first day of cross country practice, she quit. And she wanted me to quit with her, and i said, "i like it, I am staying in it." Then it had been many races later, and i won trophies and medals. And then she started being really mean, and she started making rumors to my other friends and making them mad at me. I dont know what to do, i have given her many chances, but all of my friends hate me now! and there is a dance in three days and i dont even want to go now, and my mom just bought me a new dress and i have no one to talk to. PLEASE HELP!!!:'(
Anon said on November 14, 2017
I hate my bf when he is drunk. He's a complete A Class Asshole. When he's sober he's wonderful – but too many drinks, I can't stand him. I'm stuck between a great man when sober and a complete dick when he's drunk. I hate myself for putting up with his shit. I hate myself for not being strong enough to walk away. I hate myself for how weak I am when it comes to him. I wish he would stop drinking and stop acting like a sociopath when he's drunk. He belittles me and everything I do when he's drunk. He makes me feel worthless as a human being. And then he passes out and has no recollection of what he said and how hurtful he was to me. It's like knives cutting deep into my soul that's just piling up waiting to explode. ugh!
Big’n said on November 16, 2017
Get rid of the low life. Kick him in the balls. Tell him to kiss your ass.
Reallypeedoff said on December 6, 2017
I grew up in a household with an alcoholic. Ask yourself, do you want to deal with drunk asshat when you are 70. He is not going to change. In fact he will more than likely get worse, and degrade you more. Cut the chord and run before a child's gets brought into the madness.
Remember, what comes out drunk is what they think sober. Are you really ready to endure how he is drunk, when he is sober.
FTW said on November 16, 2017
Truly, fuck the world, for all it's worth, every inch of Planet
Earth, fuck myself, don't leave me out, but don't get
involved, don't corner me
Inside, ulcer, unjust bastards, file out face first
Meet the lies and see what you are
It's forcing you down, and it's grinding against you
Let the war nerve break
For every fucking second the pathetic media pisses on me and
judges what I am in one paragraph – Look here – Fuck you all
Expect the worse, you bleeding heart, but kill me first
before it starts, yes my cock is getting hard, we are
born different after all
Invite mayhem, produce weapons, shoot out, burn down
No CNN or media now
It's forcing you down, and it's grinding against you
Let the war nerve break
For every fucking second the pathetic media pisses on me and
judges what I am in one paragraph – Look here – Fuck you all
All the money in the fucking world couldn't
buy me one second of trust or one ounce of faith in anything you're about
Fuck you all
Nothing is worth the sleep that I've lost
Apologies unacceptable now
A blistered revenge awaits in me
This is fucking loveless
Hate mail is not read, in jail instead
The Lord knows, there's worse
Ignore, this curse
Mr. Dark said on November 17, 2017
Where to begin… Well… Just on the top of my head there is that giant headache slowly creeping up like a ninja with a smiths hammer ready to work his magic.
Then there is that stupid third day party were they (or at least i am pretty sure) are plying that pineapple pen crap on repeat.
The stoners keep smoking right under my window and i am all out of old bread to fling at them and they are too high as satellites to understand what i am saying.
All i can think about is how nice it would be to just swallow that nice bottle of wine, i have saved for a small get together party with the boys, take over the galaxy with some Hive Mind Master Race and afterwards just sleep without a care in the world but… Oh wait… I drank it yesterday.
One of them even tried to crawl trough my kitchen window screaming; “I AM HUNGRY AND I CANT FIND MY PENIS”. luckily his lower part was hanging outside so he did not piss on my floor and. That and i know where he lives so he gets to clean first thing in the morning… Asshole.
While i am writing this bullshit some girl just threw up, bumped her head against the wall, whooohoooed like no tomorrow, and went back to party some more. And i am pretty sure she walked into a wall again. That is going to hurt tomorrow… I hope… Please…
People are screaming. Searching. Smoking bad some weed. Knocking on doors. Screams some more and… Slams more doors… YOU ARE NOT GOING TO FIND ASLAN YOU DUMB CUNT! GO BACK TO NARNIA! HE IS SEARCHING FOR HIS PENIS THERE!
I know that a lot of people are having a worse time… But right now… I dont care. i got cigarettes, lemon water and pain killers and too much fucking sense in my brain to only take the recommended amount.
I may sound like an old geezer even though i am only 24 but i just want one night without noise…
Moral of the story is… Fuck Aslan.
(Yeah. The pissing fuckers name is Aslan)
eve said on November 24, 2017
Family is suppose to be your life support but some gaps of pushing away seem to happen when loosing or caring for a loved one. Feelings don't ssem to matter. Not talking doesn't help either. Assumptions are made and there is no clarification.
anonymous said on November 24, 2017
oh yeah i forgot that you only show me affection when you want to fuck me
Ugh.png said on November 24, 2017
This is my first time being in a serious relationship, and I've known my boyfriend for four years before we decided to finally take things to the next level. He's honestly one of the greatest things that's ever happened to me and although I don't want to tell him to his face, he's far too good for me. He's a complete nerd, smart and funny, but he likes anime. I'm not too into it because it has a pretty bad rep and I've just never really had the urge to watch it before. But he, along with some memes I found, introduced me to Neon Genesis Evangelion, and now, on top of how great the show is, I can't stop thinking about him and that show just reminds me so much of him because it helped to shape him into who he is now. I don't know. It gives me mixed feelings, mostly sad ones, because I think about how if we go separate ways then nothing will be the same and that show is one of the only things I have of him, and it would be ruined by bad memories, y'know? I mean, we have intentions of getting married after college because we both feel very strongly for each other and about each other but who knows what could happen. It's scary. But because I feel all these things about him means I must really care for him. It's a weird feeling.
Hope this is not too long to read:
I am at a loss for words most times when i am feeling this way. I love and I hate. I try to love more than hate, but times call for the opposite. I have a close friend that I spend a lot of time with daily. She is not my girl, but she does appear that way to most people. In the past i thought I really wanted her, but found out after a few years that she only appeared on the outside as a person I wanted for myself. Now, i say everyone has to be who the want to be. I could totally remove myself out of this persons life, but i don't. I like to keep those that i know around me. No surprises at my age. I am learning that i can not save the world, but people who lie just to make them selves looks good, lie all the time. I noticed this person will say something and if you know different and correct them, they get angry, will lash out and say they did not say that. Then you turn around and their nose is in the Bible. Who does that?????? Don't answer yet. This person is not on that level. I am starting to believe that those type people spend so much time there, because they know they are rotten inside. I have some much to vent about, but then again, I really don't. I am feeling better already.
Metal Head said on November 27, 2017
Lamb of God fucking rules. That is all.
I'dRatherHitYou said on November 28, 2017
If you leave the responsibility of anything money related to a person in a position who isn't authorized to make any changes, and yet, you don't inspect their work, and expect the third party to do it for you, you're not only a fucking dipshit, you're unfit for your own position. You're the type of person who needs hit between the eyes. By a fist, a ball bat, whatever.
I hate what I see said on November 28, 2017
I thought I was better; I'm apparently not.
About a year ago I was put on a low dose of anti-depressants, and there were a few hiccups but I've been stable for about five months and I thought I was doing better. The doctor said I might even get off of them somewhat soon. My depression had been low, letting me get decent grades for once, letting me enjoy parts of life, but right now, at this very moment, I feel like I'm no better than I was a year ago. I want to cry, but I can't, I want to scream but I won't. I want to self-harm but I won't because I've made so much damn progress. But most of all, I want to die, and for the first time in a long time, I might.
Soothsayer said on November 29, 2017
I am beaten down, so much so in fact that I don't know what do to. I know what I want to do, but…
For over a year now, at least as far as I know because that's how far the records go, my wife has been taking $500 to $700 a month in cash advances off of her credit card. She's been doing this while also hiding bills that have gone into default or collection and doctor's bills; note that I know her hiding places for these and have been paying them. My wife and I also both get $100 a week (each) for work expenses and "whatever"… personal money as it were. This weekly money is also on top of her "normal" weekly credit card expenses and check expenses for the gas station, cigarettes, and everything else that the $100 should cover.
My wife makes on average $1300 a month; what she's taking in cash advances and weekly cash and her weekly spending out of checking easily goes through this… and yet… AND YET… she has the audacity to get upset at me when I order something from eBay and use the money I save each week from my $100 weekly amount! My saving pocket change for months at a time so I can order a $20 item no where equals what she's spending. But this in itself is not what's breaking me.
I had gotten to the point where I created two separate banking accounts, one for each of us. All of my work checks would go towards all the monthly bills and weekly expenses like groceries and gas and whatnot. I'd be breaking even, maybe have a hundred dollars or so left over at the end of each month. Her check would be her check: she'd pay for her weekly expenses (gas and cigarettes) and cover her credit card. She'd be coming out ahead by a great deal (if she learned to not do these damned cash advances). Her response? Sheer anger. I was apparently making her feel useless by not including her in the bills… that, get this… we're in this together and as such, half the bills are hers and she should be able to contribute.
How the hell can you help pay half the bills when you're spending your entire check?! How can one justify the excuse of wanting to share in the bills and debt, when in actuality none of her money is even going towards it? How am I the bad one by saying "fine, I'm paying for everything, you just worry about yourself"?
This is nuts, I can't freaking take it any more. I love my wife, but she has no money sense. If I pay ahead on a bill (I try to maintain a three month's credit on all our bills), she sees that as money we can be using for something else. I'm not paying three months at a time, mind you, a paid a little extra each month until I got to that three month mark. I'm trying to build a future with a bit of financial security, and all she's doing is kicking out the foundation.
Again, this has been going on for more than a year, and I've remained quiet. I've watched the bills and the expenses to try to see some sort of pattern or try to figure out why, but there's nothing. I'm afraid that if I say something now, I'm going to really blow up as everything comes out (be more pissed instead of staying on focus). But if I don't say anything, I know I'm so close to the breaking point that when I do pop, I'll take things too far (and by that I mean kicking her out).
I'm just… I'm done.
DerpyMan said on November 30, 2017
Derpdy derp. Dederpty DERP!!! Derp derp! Dederpity derp dederp derp derp!
Reallypeedoff said on December 5, 2017
My Sister in law. Wow, what a bitch! My elderly mum, aunt and a friend called to my brother and his wifes house today to drop off Christmas presents.
She threw the presents back in their faces and told them not to call anymore or send anymore cards or gifts.
We all have been nothing but nice to that horrible controlling nasty evil woman. (Well, except my other brother, he wasn't nice to her, but he had good reason)
When my brother(my twin) started dating her she was perfectly nice, until she got an engagement ring on her finger. Then, my brother wasn't allowed to text or call or visit the house and we certainly weren't welcome in their house. If we did go, she turned her back on us and ignored us. And she has verbally abused my poor sweet quiet lady like mother a few times.
We sent lots of presents and money since my little niece was born, but apparently they were never received, even though my SIL signature are on the delivery dockets (yes, we eventually recorded delivery as so many parcels hadn't turned up. My niece is 3 and i have never met her and my mum has only met her twice. But we send birthday, Christmas, easter, anniversary cards and and gifts and never get a thank you. I am convinced my twin knows nothing about the parcels as he works insanely long hours.
I just wish i knew a way to make my mum feel better. I hate my sister in law for her deliberate exclusion of my mother.
Anonymous said on December 5, 2017
I feel like my life is an ever swirling toilet that just won’t flush.
woolly what said on December 5, 2017
I can't stand this life anymore. Everything just repeats itself everyday. I'm going to fail out of the one good middle/high school in my city and have to start going to my zone high school with teachers and students that don't care about education. And I'll have to leave my "friends" that I really only get to see at school, so I'll have no friends whatsoever most likely. No one to talk to even though we only ever spoke about things like our grades, never really knew each other. But, I sort of want to fail because I don't deserve to be in a good school obviously, I've accepted that. I'm not good at anything.
I have, I guess I'd call them mental breakdowns, at least 5 times a week during which my head feels like it's spinning, I can't stop crying, and I want to scream. But, I don't scream because I make a point not to show any sort of emotions to anyone, I don't want to be judged. When I'm at school I feel like everybody is staring at me, and it makes it difficult to focus on anything. I try to listen to who they're talking about and what they're laughing at because if I don't I just assume it's me.
The reason I'm failing almost all of my classes isn't necessarily because I'm not smart, but because I can't keep up with the work and can't get started on it easily. For example, if I have two projects at once, I spend at least 5 hours deciding which one to do first by how much time I have to do it and what I need to do for it in what order. As I'm typing this at 1:23 am, I just realized I have a paper due tomorrow (or I guess today) that I haven't started and a late project to finish. I don't understand why I'm still trying to do my work since I know it's too late to bring my grades up enough in all of my classes that I need to.
Maybe my parents will kill me or disable me so I won't have to worry about going to a new school.
I cried today at school thinking about it, thankfully nobody noticed.
People just see me as an ugly, lazy girl with bad grades and bad habits since I keep all of my troubles bottled up inside.
I have so much more to vent about this hell that I exist in, but no one that reads this (if anybody does) will understand me. I might post here again later to get things off my chest…
Cynder said on December 12, 2017
I babysit my sisters kids 13 hours a day. I clean the house, and I stay home all day, everyday. I don't ask for much! I pay half the bill and I pay for my own things. Rides are all I ask for, and I pay them in gas if I have to. But I've basically became a maid at my house.
I asked my sister to clean up her mess. She can't do it because she has to work, so I always end up doing it for her. My other sister got off work to get the kids, I asked her for a ride. It's a no from her. Like, woman I watch your kids with what very little money you give me!
I'm tired of being stuck here with no way to go. I can't drive because a car crash left me scarred for life about driving or even riding in a car sometimes. It's so boring being here all the time with kids. Sometimes I wanna go do my thing. And it would be nice to have a little help clean the house. Would it hurt?
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