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    Arc posted an update 2 weeks, 1 day ago

    September 9th, 2018: I don’t understand what I’m feeling in right now, I just know it isn’t good. boredom, despondency, uninterest, annoyance, Negativity, loneliness, judgment. This does not feel good. What is the matter with me. 2 years ago I never would have imagined I’d ever feel this way. Big oof

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    Arc posted an update 1 month, 2 weeks ago

    Note to self: start dating your posts

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    Arc posted an update 1 month, 2 weeks ago

    This will be the first time I mention names on here. What the hell am I doing with Ambur? I feel wrong and that I’m setting myself up for failure, but I feel different because I want to try with her. I’ve never really gotten the chance to become true friends with her. But why now what made me decided now was the time to let her back in….. 🙁 is…[Read more]

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    Arc posted an update 2 months, 2 weeks ago

    I’ve been graduated for just over a month now and i have to say, things are better, about the same amount of boring but still better. Being out of school really make it apparent just how much free time you have on your hands, but i don’t want to just sit around i actually want to and have gotten things done that contribute to my future, it feels…[Read more]

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    Arc posted an update 4 months, 1 week ago

    I need to rely on myself more often. I made a promise to myself and I let outside influence break it. And now I’m here…feeling even lower than before, giving myself the biggest I told you so ever. This hurts more than someone else saying it. I should have listened to MYSELF. And now their the ones happy and I’m here. Again ALL because I didn’t…[Read more]

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    Arc posted an update 5 months, 1 week ago

    I’ve been distracted….and today was the worst. I just didn’t want to anymore I didn’t want to do anything that in any way regarded school FUCK school. Different topic, trying not to think of the past only makes me think of the past has only made me think of it just as much. I’ve been distracted…..She hasn’t occupied my full thoughts lately and…[Read more]

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    Arc posted an update 5 months, 2 weeks ago

    Perhaps I dwell on the absolute past because, I’m looking at an uncertain future, filled with hopes and dreams that may not be attainable, or likely to happen. The past is certain, the present is meh, and the future is uncertain. I know in the past at different points i was certainly happy, the present is dull and partially bleak, and the future…[Read more]

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    Arc posted an update 6 months, 1 week ago

    I’ve been reminiscing about the past a lot today specifically about her…them…the Ex’s that mattered. I suppose this has a link to her today, and what she does….it resembles them. But she’s different, she’s not mad, she doesn’t make excuses for why she can be sad, she tries her absolute best to put a smile on her face ALL BY HERSELF. And…[Read more]

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    Arc posted an update 6 months, 2 weeks ago

    just a random check-in. Like I said, I don’t don’t want this to just be filled with the bad. things are good, and as time goes on the closer I feel her and I become :-). I feel like I love her

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    Arc posted an update 6 months, 3 weeks ago

    Afterthoughts: It’s very interesting to look through my ” whatever comes to mind” book. I get to look back at who I use to be; it awakens memories of how I use to think and It’s helpful….In a way. Lmao, this is why I date everything I write because I like knowing the exact region of time in which I was someone else. Also I’m like 52% sure I…[Read more]

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    Arc posted an update 6 months, 3 weeks ago

    I haven’t had to be on this site at all this year, and I supposed that’s a good thing. But then again I did say I should start posting not just when things are bad; So here it is. This year hasn’t been perfect but it’s been getting better. Either I’m getting used to the shit or the shit is letting up, and I think it’s a bit of both. Although right…[Read more]

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    Arc posted an update 8 months, 3 weeks ago

    Last vent of 2017. And so last minute 😒. Well this year my resolution is to figure out what i want. To figure out what’ll make me happy. Im so sick of feeling like i don’t know….me. Work towards it Malik. Be great
    -2017 malik

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    Arc posted an update 9 months, 2 weeks ago

    I should vent good stuff on here besides just bad stuff….makes it seem like I only have bad moments. Well, it feels like everything is crashing down on me in this moment, “if she likes me so much why am I being left on read”, “the fuck is praying supposed to do?”, “really? right when I find something that’s boosting me up?”, “why the fuck you…[Read more]

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    Arc posted an update 10 months, 1 week ago

    Female companionship, I miss that. All I think about 24/7 are girls…girls, and sex. I really miss having a girl I could call “mine” and do stuff with. I feel like I have no company and any girl I may have interest in is far out of reach. Shit, It feels like I have an interest in all girls. But that’s so…ugh. I just want my mind to chill. I…[Read more]

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    Arc posted an update 11 months ago

    UUUuuuugh fuck everyone, get the fuck out my face with the same stupid ass shit. Just get THE FUCK OUT OF MY FACE, fuck you. I’m so beyond sick of school like….but oh yea my problems don’t matter in comparison to the more needy right? my problems don’t matter because I’m just a teenager who pays no bills right? again, fuck you. There are fuckers…[Read more]

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    Arc posted an update 11 months, 4 weeks ago

    It feels as if the heat is high and the pressure us on. I feel it from many different sides, each of them having their own little parts that make up the whole, With academics, it’s specific teachers and just the work in general (coasting through senior year my ass). I feel it socially with friends becoming former friends, helping friends sort of…[Read more]

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    Arc posted an update 1 year ago

    I think I’m just pissed off, like really pissed or just extremely upset. I don’t show it though or even feel it, That’s why I said “I think”, but I feel like there is something there. I don’t know, I don’t get it, am I angry or just exponentially sad? This is just confusing I feel happy but with the fog still lurking beneath close beneath. It only…[Read more]

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    Arc posted an update 1 year, 1 month ago

    This summer so far has been mildly uneventful, but I honestly don’t see that as a bad thing really. I just want to be lazy without feeling a bit of guilt, I mean I worked hard over the junior year so shouldn’t I feel shameless in my laziness. Today’s orientation really reminded me that I DID work hard over the school year, but with college…[Read more]

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    Arc posted an update 1 year, 3 months ago

    Just overall lonely I guess, and not trying to jump i the arm fo the next female who shows me attention

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